1. |
In Time
02:35
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All the hours spent absorbing static light
Slowly accumulate, a ledger that defines
The total worth and value of a life
Spinning circles
And all the promises so confidently made
To a quiet friend under a quiet grave
Of mountains to be moved
Potential not to waste
To be constructive
What a disappointment
All the hours lost to self-directed hate
Slowly pile up ‘til you can’t bear the weight
But it’s only the brain’s worst chemicals talking fake
And that falling sky is just this desert’s rain
And that ticking bomb is just the body’s way
Of spelling out in Morse Code:
“This could be okay”
And I know you made a choice
A different one than mine
And I know that that’s your right
And I know you’ll be just fine
And I kind of wish you had
The same respect for mine
But I don’t want to fight
Because I know I’ll be just fine
In time
And we’re further away
From the view that inspired us
And we’re further away
From the knife that sliced us
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2. |
Crossing Sign
03:04
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A broken railroad crossing sign
I didn’t stop, I crossed the line
There’s tons of steel and plastic seats
And people coming right for me
A broken sign an empty seat
Your ghost is staring right at me
And I’m too scared to say a thing
The endless aching life will bring
You won’t pick up the phone
I’m worried you’re alone
And I’m worried I’m a thief
Caught up in another scheme
I won’t pick up the phone
When I need to be alone
Stealing someone’s dreams
And I’m caught up in another stupid scene
We don’t find love
We learn to get tough
A broken railroad crossing sign
I didn’t stop, I crossed the line
There’s tons of steel and plastic seats
And people coming right for me
A broken sign an empty seat
Your ghost is staring right at me
And I’m too scared to say a thing
The endless aching life will bring
Child of an alcoholic
Running out of things to call it
Running out of time
I never had the time
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3. |
January First
02:15
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When the ball dropped and the crowd cheered
Took a deep breath, dreading the new year
And the worry was surrounding
But the laughter wasn’t stopping
“I got old”
When did you start feeling so?
“I don’t know
I guess a couple months ago”
That’s a joke, I’ve heard this sorry monologue
Over and over
There’s no use with resolutions
It’s a lifestyle, disillusioned
“I got old”
When did you start feeling so?
“I don’t know
I guess a couple years ago”
That’s a joke, I’ve heard this sorry monologue
Over and over
“I got old”
You said that ten years ago!
“Yeah, I know
But I was never comfortable”
That’s terrible, but you could take control
Drop those rose-colored glasses on the ground
Step as hard as you can. What a glorious sound!
We were never young, so getting old won’t hurt
Stretch that aching back, it’s January First!
When did you start feeling so old?
I don’t know.
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4. |
Garbage Universe
02:15
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You only show up in my head when I can’t sleep
And I used to think I could see you
In different cities
And I’m letting go, but I’d like to know
About a handful of nights
When a couple things felt right
About a handful of days
When all we could say was goodbye
And I’m letting go, but I’d like to know
I know this is growing up I’m starting to see
But now when I see you my throat closes up
I can’t breathe
It’s only getting worse in this garbage universe
But there was a handful of nights
When a couple things felt right
There was a handful of days
When all we could say was goodbye
There’s nothing to let go
There’s nothing left to know
About a handful of nights
When a couple things felt right
About a handful of days
When all we could say was goodbye
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5. |
The Season
02:59
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It was a long week, barely worth the memory
And then another, dragging uneventfully
And I don’t know how
Many more had passed before
I realized I’ve been here all to frequently
It’s the season, I’m repeating
Hopeless lines I’ve practiced one too many times
Losing sight, deluded into thinking that
Self-aware means self-loathing
We had a long fight, barely saying anything
Another retread of boring insecurities
And when I don’t speak
You can’t know what I mean
We run in silence, building distance in between
It’s the season, I’m repeating
Hopeless lines I’ve practiced one too many times
Losing sight, deluded into thinking that
Self-aware means self-loathing
So I can justify the all-too-frequent tendency
Of criticizing people happier than me
Self-aware means self-loathing
You know, the cold wrecks my ability
To function half-appropriately
While you sit waiting hopefully
For a life you think could be happy
Will I push on through til the weather turns?
Will you lose your cool when I never learn?
Will it all work out? Will I shed my doubts?
Will I be something you could live without?
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6. |
Long Island
02:50
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I told you about the drive
Car engine screaming the whole time
You smoked a cigarette you said
You didn’t want to die just feel like it
I’m gonna die at a hospital on Long Island
My head is buzzing
The alcohol is humming
It would be easy but I
Don’t forgive you
I don’t even know why I drag my feet like stones
My eyes are closed, my fists are closed
And I don’t know why
I’m gonna die at a hospital on Long Island
I see the peak
Under my drink I saw the cliff
While we were talking
Our time was rotten
You smoked a cigarette you said
You didn’t want to die just feel like it
I’m gonna die at a hospital on Long Island
You were like a drug
I couldn’t sleep
You were like a drug
I couldn’t keep
You didn’t hear me out
When I was screaming loud
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7. |
Panicking
02:15
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Hands are shaking and I can’t see straight
Skull is pulsing and I can’t feel my face
And the knocking on my rib cage door
Is getting louder than before
I’m forgetting how to breathe
I’m about to smash the screen
There's no use to explain
‘Cause that just makes it worse
Make another move, make another change
Make another noise or don’t
So I’ll pretend I’m listening
Smile big, don’t let them know I’m panicking
There's no use to explain
‘Cause that just makes it worse
I can’t control my brain
And thinking harder hurts for longer
Talking never works
There's no use to explain
‘Cause that just makes it worse
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8. |
Bought Right In
02:40
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Hanging on a sidewalk close to the edge
Wondering who would miss me if I was dead
'Cause nobody told me about mental health
So I found a couple ways to deal with it myself
And we bought right in
We were desperate children
Because imaginary friends
Were still better than not having any friends
Faith and ancient texts
Were a decent substitute for confidence
'Cause when the house of cards
Comes crashing down
No one’s gonna teach you
How to stand on solid ground
They’ll just laugh and ask
“What took so long?”
While the rest assumeYou’re just another prodigal one
And we bought right in
We were desperate children
Because loneliness is a gateway drug
To bad politics and bad assumptions
What else are we supposed to do
When we can’t find anything to hold on to?
But we grew up
We learned how to love
We learned so much
And we’re never giving up
And we bought right in
We were desperate children
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9. |
Light
02:47
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Feeling light lately
I know we're all feeling crazy
I know I call my folks too much to complain
When I don’t feel okay
We talked about how you were feeling light
That you're too sick to go outside
And talking to people feels fake
When you can’t talk about the things you hate
The things you hate
You came over
Talked about your light summer
When you pulled away from everyone
And lost it all
You picked up some habits
That you're trying to break
Before you break
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10. |
8mm
03:10
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Smiling for the eight-millimeter
With a smile that suddenly seems too familiar
Like a smile that we put on every day in the mirror
A smile that knows how to fade
And you’ve been screaming
Yeah, you’ve been screaming
And you can’t stop screaming, no
And everybody’s scared
That you’re headed over there
And you’re getting pretty scared yourself
And did you know that you were not alone?
As you wandered through the vapor getting lost
No, you didn’t know, and now you’re almost gone
And you don’t wanna talk at all about it
That’s okay ‘cause I’m afraid to talk about it
And now it’s too late to talk to you about it
And I’m talking to myself
And you don’t want anyone to see you
Don’t you worry, no one’s gonna see you
It’s the last thing you said
And that means permanent
‘Cause we don’t take things back
You could have told me
And did you know that you were not alone?
As you wandered through the vapor getting lost
No, you didn’t know, and now you’re almost gone
And it’s too late for me to help you hold on
In a dirty waiting room
You didn’t know what you were waiting for and I was in denial too
In one brief moment of lucidity
You said:
“I don’t know why this is happening to me”
And all that’s left
The remnant of a camera lens
Where you can stay beautiful
As the ink slowly fades and vanishes
And did you know that you were not alone?
As you wandered through the vapor getting lost
But you didn’t know and now you’re gone
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11. |
IDK
05:03
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I watch you tear me open
And you say it doesn’t have to be this way
And I know I must be leaving
You say it doesn’t have to be this way
I’m leaving
Same reasons
I’m leaving
And I don’t know what’s gonna happen
Sometimes the train sounds like the ocean
When I’m asleep and leaving town
I close my eyes and notice
All the worst things
Sometimes your steps sound like a freight train
When I am lost and on the tracks
I close my eyes and realize
We’re further away
And now a few times a year
I can’t fall asleep
Without a pill down my throat
It takes some weight off of my feet
And I don’t know what’s gonna happen
When I was 18, I swore I’d never
But ten years has a way of teaching
Now I’m learning
That if I want to sleep
There’s some things I can’t keep to myself
And if I want to leave
There’s some things I can’t keep
And I don’t know what’s gonna happen
When I was 18 I swore I’d never
Take any pills to keep it together
And I told my father that I’d be stronger
That I’d find a way to do this no longer
Now I’m 28, 10 years to the day
That I left for college to find a new calling
Now I’m in my bedroom apartment in Brooklyn
And I’m in full panic and I think I’ve had it
And I think you’ve had it
And we’re further away
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Cold Wrecks Brooklyn, New York
Cold Wrecks deliver emotional catharsis with a delirious grin, with frantic songs about growing, coping, freaking out, and learning. The band is the result of far-too-long-lasting friendships, and their top priority is to just, like, make sure everyone is having a nice/safe/affirming/fun time, you know? ... more
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